I’ve come to the conclusion that being a new mummy just means you’re constantly learning and adaptating. One minute your little one is sleeping 16 hours a day and then the next she only sleeps 12 hours. That’s 4 extra hours to amuse them, and keep going on all cylinders. It’s hard. It’s really hard, but then she smiles, those cute arms reach up to me, her eyes dance as she giggles and, I instantly forget how tired I was. Ok, the tiredness soon comes back, but it’s that appreciation from this little girl who relies on me (and her daddy) 100% which I cherish. ?It’s her giggle, her smile, her cuddles.?
I’ve even noticed that in the middle of the night, when she falls back to sleep in my arms, or even if I’ve just shhhhhh’d her to sleep, I get that rush, that absolute love soaring through me, the way she looks so peaceful, happy, content and absolutely sound asleep. I don’t think it’s possible to describe that feeling to anyone who is not a parent. I don’t think they can imagine it. I certainly couldn’t. I remember when I was pregnant reading about this feeling and wondering if I would feel it, and what it would be like. I can say with absolute certainty I do, and it’s the most wonderful thing in the world.
The other most wonderful thing, is a similar feeling I get knowing that hubby has that exact same love. Each night, when we go to bed we tiptoe into her room, and for a few minutes, we watch her sleeping. We both smile, trading looks of isn’t she so cute, and ahhhhing at our gorgeous little sleepy girl. It’s the connection between the three of us that make us a family and I love it so so much. It’s our tiptoe into her room, it’s our glances, it’s out open mouthed surprised ‘oh’ looks when we discover her upside down, cuddling monkey, holding her cot bars. Our eyes sparkle, we smile, we silently laugh and we attempt to sneak back out before we wake our baby. I love that time. It’s one of my favourite moments of the day, we have such a stronger connection, our own secret club, I love it.
Hubby, I know you read this, I love you more than words can say xxxx
Sorry, to everyone else, this started as a post about my love for my little girl, but I’m sure you’ll understand that love extends to my hubby too.